Yo! Wassup? Alles klar? ¿Qué tal? hehe.... welcome to my BLOG!

Must ask myself this question sometime or another... why have I been blogging so little here in Germany? Hmm.. good question.. probably lazy to write or type anything. Been having this kind of regretfull feeling lately.... feelings of insecurity... what if I don't get any scholarship after i return from this year? What if because my year caused me to miss out on study opportunities...what if... what if... Hmm.. why am I asking myself again, i've overcome this question before I even began my year.. hmm......maybe because the fact that I found out that the german economy is detetiorating and that school fees might be imposed... maybe because all my friends are studying.. maybe.. maybe... hmm... Big enigma there. is it realyl worth it being here... or am I wasting my time? .......Must calm myself.. only 4 months to go.... survive.. never give up... too late to anyway, makes no difference if I give up or not.... should forget about this.. concentrate on my life here... Still can't suppress this feelign of loneliness, missing my friends form Malaysia and here...I'm stuck at home.. That'll probably be the reason why I'm having this feelings now.. nothing to do............except wathc the Olympics on TV, which has also been partially banned coz my host mom says the electric bill is too high....But she can call home from work for so long.... coz she MUST know whether her son e-mailed back from USA....